World Is A Simulation

I found myself always play this one game during my low time such as sick, fatigue or depressed. Main reasons:

1. it can keep me stand up and move a little bit
2. it is intense enough to overcome my worry ( usually generated from fight or flee scenario) because it encourage facing the energy and fight it.
3. it is familiar enough for me to avoid initial hesitation or friction.
4. It requires concentration because no matter how experienced you are, you only have limited life value in this game and die very quickly when surrounded by energies.

I sometimes feel shameful of playing games, I should use this time for my hobby at least? I can never overcome it because of longtime education obtained in childhood about learning and playing.

Still I enjoy it despite shamefulness (or maybe thanks to the shamefulness), I grow old enough to decide to play games and nobody is going to question me on that. I got the freedom I dreamed of in my childhood.

Uneasy lies the head that wears a crown.

-King Henry the Fourth, Part Two, by William Shakespeare.

Everything came at a price, it is always whether you are willing to gain something by paying the price. Be aware of the price tag though. Not everything is in the budget.